Halfway through/5 months!

I cannot believe it is already my half way point on this exchange.. These past months have FLEW by so quickly.. that I can't even wrap my mind around it. All I do know, is that this experience has opened up my eyes to something that I never thought I would be able to experience. This dream like time of my life is one of complete happiness, utter depression, random mood swings, good byes, hellos, crying, laughing, etc etc. I will always remember this experience for what it is, that being myself. I am slowly learning now that I cannot focus and love anything or anyone else in my life, if I cannot focus and love my own. I am taking the advice that everyone has given me and putting it into use. Day by day.. one day at a time. I am going to try and somehow slow this exchange down.. even though I know it will not be possible. :D Some of the people I met here, the amount of the language I learned, and the culture in general.. makes this life changing for me. I am not ready to come back, but when I do.. I know that I will have grown. Grown from that excited and nervous kid in August, who didn't know what to expect.. to a person who can stick up for himself, learn what's good for himself, and live his life freely and how he wants. I will grow into someone that I, myself can love.. I am taking these next months and not having a moment of thought of home, not a moment of sadness, and not a moment of regret at what happened these last months.. and just going to enjoy myself because I feel like I deserve it. I also learned this last month, that making decisions to situations, in regards to things in your life you thought would always be there for you, does not always have to include what other people want (or what one thinks they want). I learned to take a stand for myself, and bounce back. It has been a hell of a month. My emotions have never been so low. But when there is low, there is a will to go back high. That is my objective for this next month. To focus on myself. Nobody else, and do what makes me happy.